The past few months have been a bit crazy over here -- I'd like to think that isn't normally how it is, but it is. With both of us working full time, it is mad chaos most of the time and to be completely honest, most of the time I am asking myself what I'm doing. I'm trying to do my best at working and being a good employee, being a good wife, being a good mom, and finding time to be spiritual and put myself first sometimes. I'd like to admit that I fail most of the time and finding a balance to do it all most often feels impossible, but we are finding ways, slow painful ways, to make things work. We have a lot of trial and error over here and our kids take most of the error -- poor little things. There is a reason they can't remember most things when they are this little right? on my journey to being a more patient and kind mother, I mess up and sometimes am not as nice as I want to be. In the middle of trying to figure all of this out, I decided to sign up and study for a hard professional certification exam with a 50% pass rate. I studied my bum off for 8 long weeks taking many nights away from my husband and children to study, take practice exams and attend study groups. It was a sacrifice and looking back, I'm so grateful that 8 weeks went by fast because it was starting to wear on me. Many days I would leave to work before my family was up and not return until they were asleep. There was actually a period of time I didn't see my kids for two whole days, and while I've done that for vacation purposes, it was harder on me than I would have thought. Felt so much guilt. Are you seeing an underlining pattern here? I feel guilty and bad most of the time and I'm really trying to change that mentality because I know it doesn't help. Anyway, with anxiety and a nauseated stomach in tow, I went to that testing center and passed that 3 hours 175 question exam. I was so proud of myself and grateful I only had to do it one time.
Well, this rather turned into a place for me to complain. Hey, blog, don't you miss me?!
We had a good summer! We played, swam, went to the aquarium many times, played with cousins and grandparents, went to Bear Lake, flew our kite, kayaked on the lake (mostly Noah and dad, they made a lot of one on one trips), spending a lot of time finishing our basement (will be done soon!) and made a lot of fun neighbor friends. There is so much that we did that I'm hoping I can just document accurately through pictures. I will describe a bit more in each kids individual posts, but we spent a lot of time together, even despite our busy work schedules. I'm grateful for the summer months but for some reason, so excited for the fall and winter holidays. We always have so many good memories formed by the traditions we have and the people we spend our time with. I'm trying to get a lot of things set in place before December, like having all of my shopping done (eeek!), but I really want to enjoy December and also can't wait because I'm taking the entire week of Christmas off, which I've never been able to do!!
Our kids are getting bigger and bigger and I can't believe how fast time is going by. I'm trying to soak up the amazing time I have with them because I know that one day I will wish it back. Going to try to print out a calendar for December and fill it with something we can do each day. I have a 30 before 30 bucket list and one of those items is to volunteer with my kids, so I'm hoping to find some fun things we can do as a family to serve, but also check something off my list :). We got to go to Disneyland and few weeks ago for a quick weekend. It was the craziest time I've ever been there, seeing lines get up to almost 3 hours long, but we had fun as a family. It was such a quick trip, I look forward to the time (when kids are older for sure) we can go for a bit longer, stay in a closer hotel, and enjoy a week out of it rather than going going going for a few days. It was good to have uninterrupted time with our kids and Noah was elated the entire time. It was so special to see him light up, especially when he sees his favorite things on Disney movies come to life. It may have made me tear up a few times, or maybe not.
I could write quite the blog update, but I was hoping to hop on here and just do something quick and put a bunch of pictures together. I like to print blog books at the end of the year and I have a lot of catch up on. Happy November!
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